Tuesday, March 31, 2009

- the first step into time. -

Hola! (:

I figured I should start posting for this right now. I am not sure how formal/informal I should be, but anway I'll post as i normally post. If things needa change then I will change it.

Mmhmm, so I need to write my "personal thoughts of WSC 2009" for this entry. I was thinking, since this is a blog and more personal stuff, I thought informal would be nice. Yups.

First of all, I didn't exactly sign up for this. I mean like last year during the intro talk about all the new REs we could take up I wasn't really interested in any one of them. I was thinking something like "I'm Sec 2 only, I don't think I should be so ambitious and keikiang (act smart) go and do then land myself into trouble." So I thought for sec 2 it would be nice to remain sorta "low profile" and just go into the normal RE procedures.

Then one fine day in term 1 Mr Lim appeared. Mmhm. So accordingly I was "recommended (?) to be in WSC". Yea and frankly, I was like "huh...". I mean like I thought normal RE was set for me, and I nearly got a group. But then there was like "just join la, i mean it's a good exposure" and that kind of thing and I was hesitating for like heck long trying to choose a mugging RE or more of a research RE.

(I just took a break from this blog to facebook and just realised my MSN was set to appear offline all this while. Nevermind, irrelevant. Let's get back to business.)

And so the choice? Obiviously if not I won't be on this blog anymore. Yes, it was a yes.

Considering why I actually agreed to this, I thought real hard about my choice. Why? Hmm. Still thinking. I think it was more like, "okay lorh, since this chance is thrown right into my face, I get to have more knowledge and exposure than KJ in certain areas, then why not. Yea, I think it was something like this. I mean like which nutcase would not accept such an opportunity. I could have been one, but I'm not. Good (:

Okay, what a long chunk and I haven't got to the second part of this blogpost. So what I actually hoped to gain from this? Frankly, it's in exposure and knowledge that some people may never get their chance to lay their hands on. Apart from that, it would be damn nice if we could emerge as winners (in any form) in this competition cos then I would be a world scholar! wahaha. Joking (: Beyond that actually I have to get much much more before I can call myself that. I need to learn how to debate. (hmm, remember that I dislike some debaters, or actually the debater's style?)
Yea but actually it's more of the exposure and oral skills that I'm putting my targets on. It's not very common that I actually dare to sign up for such a big competition. I don't have the guts.

But since I've signed up then I think it would be okay for me, given that the first few lessons have been enjoyable to some extent.

(okay, I know this blogpost is getting a bit long, but just bear with me. Usually my enthusiasm in blogging dies out rather quickly.)

Hmm now onto the third bit about my concerns and anxieties. If you know me well enough, I think you would know that I have a rather short term memory and I take lots of time to read and absorb anything that is given to me. Erm, I think this is my own problem but it may drag the team down. Anxieties is definitely about the competition itself. I know the vague format of the competition but I don't know how it's gonna be like. How tough, how competitive, how tiring, you know this kinda thing. It's a bit scary to think about this stuff. It's like "the future is vague" that kind of feeling. I'm not sure what my decision has got me into. I just have to wait and see.

My fellow group members are okay. I've worked with Jonathan for countless number of projects (since he's in my class and good friend) and I've known Glen for a good number of years since primary school. I think I'll be able to interact with them frequently enough. I see Jonathan everyday in class and Glen is also in shooting CCA.
I'm the only non-debater in the group. Something that is not very appealing to me, but this is rather trivial so its okay.

(okay, I'm not going to like the next part over here because I need to comment on my team members, which is not going to be very nice. Please, do not take any offence.)

Jonathan has a bit of ego (like me). He's a bit rebellious at times, given that I've worked with him in CEC and also normal academic projects. But he's good at what he does and he has the depth of the knowledge required. I think he's good to work with, just gives me some trouble at times. (:

Glen. Hmm, I've never worked with him. I don't know his working attitude but I think it should be fine. I think he's committed to his learning, which is good la.

Benjamin. I'm commenting on myself. Frankly, my greatest obstacle is facebook, time, sleep and my mother. I facebook too often for my own good and I want enough sleep. My mother doesn't like me to sleep at 12mn even though I'm okay with it cos I have to anyway. This can actually cause a lota conflicts.

Ahhh. FINALLY! Onto the final and last bit for this post: What is my ultimate objective for the competition? Fairly simple, just go in and do what I can, win or don't win it's still the exposure to knowledge and experience that counts.

But of course, who doesn't want to win?

Okay, so I'm at the end of my first post, relatively long and loh soh but that's me. I'm like an ah pek. Next up I have to submit this post along with another post to Mr Lim by this Fri 3 April but I don't feel like posting so soon about the next topic. Oh, and I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY CURRICULUM GUIDE. AHHH! ><

Okay, enough of your agony to read this post. toodles! :)

Benjamin took a walk down memory lane at 10:45 AM

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